We
all are fools when it comes with the heart, because there is the need of it to
be attended immediately so as the quench the insatiability of the desire. Love
is in need to be felt and to be reciprocated, and there has never been a godly
instance that one simply loves out from a charitable heart especially when we
are speaking with the erotic. We cannot deny that we invest emotions with body
signatures that crystallize the language of the heart. We all are fools to make
it all happen and long for it at once.
It
is hard once we gave it all and there is that noble feel to love absent cause
yet for the moment, but eventually it will all turn out to be a subconscious
investment slowly getting conscious. But yes, at the height of the momentary
ecstasy, one cannot feel the egoistic reason that drives one to be so
affectionate and that is why in the end when things are worse within the bond,
both try to salvage the self as much as possible and if not, saving one’s self
is the principle of it all and there goes the nobility of a selfless romantic
love.
I
am suffering under the gale of love’s bitter sting. It is hard when you have
heard the beauty of her words slowly falling short that is she has neither
heart nor commitment to follow her words. Maybe she had been irrational when
she said those beautiful words at the height of her ecstasy without being
rational about it. Maybe it was all just a spur of the moment and once the
moment is gone, so as the words simply went along with the wind. Men are
careful with their words and they are never dumb to follow them unless they are
given a reason to abandon the fight, and what great reason to abandon when one
is already abandoned by the other. Sad to know that a fight for the two becomes
a burden of the one and never has the other raised an arm to carry the cross
along to make the burden easy.
I
am scarred to know that I have placed all of my heart and my trust to her words
that nothing is left of me to give strength to stand alone and all the more I
am deeply wounded because those words are starting to be unrecognizable echoes
from the distance. She has been a child in her manner, and she has been a
problem for me, but I still managed to overlook the instance because Pandora
still leaves me with hope after all the dreaded sickness that went astray. I
have treated her as my salvation and only to find out that my redemption was
only for a while.
Time
will tell and time will let this child grow and if she begins to be less of a
noble to the cause she told me that was sincere then I will curse her for all
of time being not even a woman of her word. If she shows no dignity neither
honour in my presence and in my absence, then she deserves nothing at all even
from her own God. God may forgive, but after the punishment has been given to
set mind and heart to learning. God is merciful yet just and I see to it that
what is due should be given especially to that of someone who fails to follow
their own tongue and made me long in perfect trust for that beautiful union.
I
shouldn’t have trusted a child, but that is reason telling me, but my heart
told me to open it to her and I followed with utmost sincerity because I hoped
that everything will be alright, although this is not yet the end, let me just
release my momentary distress over a event worthy of lamentations and remorse
and if not anger to myself and to the failure of the other.
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