The stars and the view that we
had upon a mountain before you accepted me in my life came unto me and made me remember
you in that very night. I never thought that we could ever be such a lovely
couple, so perfect that both in opposite complimented each other. With every
passing day that went about, love grew into obsession. But that is all what I
hopeless romantic could ever do in sight of one so dear. I have pressed upon my
love to you so much and it ended up painful to see one choked. Too much of
anything is not good at all, even when that something is divine by its nature.
The split was an awakening that I
have been overly ideal and forget that we are humans. I have been like a god
pressing so much of it being infinite, but mortal as we are we are flawed and
we take prowess in change also. I made mistakes and I am grateful that with
those you still bear with me, happy I am to know I am loved, and even though of
several days passing of the split made me realize a lot of things that I should
and should not do just to keep you with me. You are the woman who set me upon
my knees begging, desperate and foolishly in love.
But I thought that was the end. I
have considered in taking my own life for I vowed to the heavens that I will
never love another woman in my life and if I still continue to live the
possibility of that promise will be broken, that is why I could have rested
eternally ensuring my words to take life that she alone has my heart. But I am
then again awakened by hear voice like an angel sent at the peak when the
dagger is raised and softly whispered unto me that “I will not love you if you
would kill yourself, love yourself more so that if I am there, you would not
have me dead also.” I am but a morbid
poet who takes prestige in death in graceful exit, but she slapped me in the
face knowing that she yet opens heart to me, for she still loves me as her own,
and that I should be aware of the things that I have to consider for me not to harm
her again.
I must learn and I am learning
and to cease in this endeavour is to lose her forever. I love her and for that
she is all I ever need and I am to listen to keep her close within reach. I
love her so much that I cannot anymore think of myself with someone else. I am
bound unto her, but yes, the split was something to be an eye opener. Let me
understand you more and more, and this path is of my own choosing, because
loving a Johannah Joy Batiancila is all a Karl Archuleta could ever do.
I am to learn and to listen, for
she is the voice of my heart and I should pay heed to its call. It is a duty, a
joyful obligation to be met set upon by love. I love her so much.
someone told me that you are a sexist..,well i'm not saying that i believe him 'coz i dnt know u personally, but allow me if i may ask- is a sexist capable of loving his/her opposite sex?
ReplyDeleteYour source fail to hear the part that I am merely playing sexist to get attention in class. And if I am just playing sexist then I am not a sexist.
DeleteA sexist is still human and he/she can love the opposite sex. He/she is not absolute in his/her stand and being absolute about it is totally impossible. But the tension of the sexist perhaps is his/her devout allegiance and fanaticism of his/her own sex and claim it as powerful as the other. He/she can still love but there will be that sexist that sexist that will bar one into the understanding of the other.
thanks for the reply,. just one last question, did you wrote any article about law of attraction? 'just wanna know your side about it..
DeleteYou're welcome and nope, I haven't written anything about it, and I guess its that documentary film entitled The Secret. I have a paper on Aristotle and Causality and that is one secret in understanding that Secret. My article about that is in the early part of this blog.
Deletethankx, i'll find time to read it.., anyway, just so you know- i believe in "the-law-of-attraction-thingy".. it works for me.., HAHAHAHA
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