I am a person
who is hard to himself in experiencing happiness. Oftentimes, I shove away the
opportunities that came which supposedly make me feel jubilant. However, I had
never felt a great sense of joy not until I know Johannah Joy. There was no
other way for me but to love her and it felt awesome to be loved in return.
There is indeed no greater feeling than to know and feel that one is loved.
Ever since we got married, every waking moment is worth it. The sun greets me
with the illumination of her face besides mine on bed. The presence warms me,
assures me that this person is willing to live with me until I die. The day is
not complete if it does not start with her when I wake up and does not end with
her when I am to close my eyes. Other than my family whom I hold dear, she too
shares the same spot. The spot where I am afraid to lose people. There is no
greater joy than having my wife and seeing her face and knowing that I am
loved. I treasure her. If my treasure seems to be far, my heart pounds as if it
is going to exit my body. As they say, for where your treasure is, there will
your heart be also. I love her so much!
The why of my
life is my wife (whylife – whyfe – wife, just playing with words). Money cannot
buy her smile and when she does so, I get it for free and best when it is for
or because of me. Looking at her is also looking at my responsibility, the need
to take care of her, serve her and keep her smiling. In my despair she gives me
light although at times I am so hardheaded. Her voice is endearing and I know
it is for all because she is kind but I feel special because she chose to be
with me for all of my life while being kind. The world became colorful because
of her and I too slowly learn to be kind for she infected me with it. It is
heartwarming to continually know that she is mine and I am hers. With that, I
am even ashamed to unleash my anger in front of her because she is too fragile.
I am always reminded to take care of her, to let her feel my love. It is time
to step into her long desire for us. It is time to let go of the egotistical
Karl and follow the lead of my wife for a better life. She is now the ultimate
center of the why of my life.
Why does she
kiss me in the morning? Why does she kiss me before we sleep? Why does she
randomly kiss me? Why does she play with my belly fat? Why does she nag me to
make me do exercises? Why does she call me when we are far? Why does she cook
for me? Why does she tell me to have a haircut? Why does she call me when she
needs help? Why does she massage my back? Why does she tell me to massage her
back? Why does she remind me to eat? Why does she listen to me when I have
problems? Why does she dream about our future? Why does she take care of me
when I get sick? Why does she call me ‘babe’? Why does she dream of having
babies with me as the father? Why does she “sleep with me”? Why does she hug me
often? Why does she tell me that she sleeps better when I am beside her? Why does
she throw her mood swings at me? Why does she want to have a date with me? Why
does she take a photo of me while sleeping? Why does she do the laundry
sometimes? Why does she tell me to wear nice clothes?
Because she
loves me! The things she would do for love.
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