The
year is about to end and let me give a year ender status report.
This
year started rough for the previous one ended so too in rough manner when the
issues of the heart drowns the desperate soul. Yet not later than a 3 month
space there was a comeback because such pain was unbearable and both were at
loss when they were not one.
When
summer came I was faced with a challenge from work that is they wish to remove
a thorn in their conservative belly. Especially when this thorn took roots upon
its own and many were dying to follow. But they cannot afford their rule be
questioned and challenge by a mere commoner. Thus I was booted out.
After
the fall, the vacuum came and the beauty of my isolation was disturbed and thus
in bankruptcy I was forced to be recalled into my original post. A month in
complete devastation of being at loss in one’s own means for survival. I
started to find that means again, yet the contemporary industry is not for me.
Simultaneously,
the issues of the heart went worse than ever that cost a near suicidal impulse
of such loss, too much loss, from two ends, that is of the belly and of the
heart. That was a midyear crisis and so follows many rejections made from those
contemporary industries. Yet I still did pursue my loved profession.
Opportunity
came from two Universities and that was a good thing, two prestigious ones. Yet
I chose the one who took me first and here I am in a new world, a world full of
elite and not so local people in front of me. Yet I did manage to enjoy their
company just like the others before and I still have my touch but I was still
scarred and scared to reborn the ultra free spirit I had before.
Regarding
the heart, it slowly came into another resolution when the true test of bondage
was realized so much through the loss and both were willing to right the wrong
and so it did. This time both were already at the time when pride was shut and
both wish to have a tandem.
It
is a different atmosphere when you are with elder people. You are the garbage
bag of their excess in wealth and resources and I cannot help to eat. The work
area is good for my sport and big and receptive of nature. It is beautiful
environment yet I can safely say the all institutions suffer the same sickness
inside its system.
This
year is about to end and the comeback of
those two hearts managed to kept itself intact, I can say these precious months
that we came by together again, it was a bit different. There is so much
strength and maturity and understanding and tandem, something that makes a good
and healthy relationship. 9 days to go before we go round about again, and I
guess for a greener pasture and a healthy heart, this year unveiled to me its
bounty for my maturity. This is what I call a blessing. The fire that burns me
and moulds in me the man every boy wants to be. “Through the fire and the flames we carry on!”
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