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2014 In a Nutshell

                The year is about to end and let me give a year ender status report.

                This year started rough for the previous one ended so too in rough manner when the issues of the heart drowns the desperate soul. Yet not later than a 3 month space there was a comeback because such pain was unbearable and both were at loss when they were not one.

                When summer came I was faced with a challenge from work that is they wish to remove a thorn in their conservative belly. Especially when this thorn took roots upon its own and many were dying to follow. But they cannot afford their rule be questioned and challenge by a mere commoner. Thus I was booted out.

                After the fall, the vacuum came and the beauty of my isolation was disturbed and thus in bankruptcy I was forced to be recalled into my original post. A month in complete devastation of being at loss in one’s own means for survival. I started to find that means again, yet the contemporary industry is not for me.

                Simultaneously, the issues of the heart went worse than ever that cost a near suicidal impulse of such loss, too much loss, from two ends, that is of the belly and of the heart. That was a midyear crisis and so follows many rejections made from those contemporary industries. Yet I still did pursue my loved profession.

                Opportunity came from two Universities and that was a good thing, two prestigious ones. Yet I chose the one who took me first and here I am in a new world, a world full of elite and not so local people in front of me. Yet I did manage to enjoy their company just like the others before and I still have my touch but I was still scarred and scared to reborn the ultra free spirit I had before.

                Regarding the heart, it slowly came into another resolution when the true test of bondage was realized so much through the loss and both were willing to right the wrong and so it did. This time both were already at the time when pride was shut and both wish to have a tandem.

                It is a different atmosphere when you are with elder people. You are the garbage bag of their excess in wealth and resources and I cannot help to eat. The work area is good for my sport and big and receptive of nature. It is beautiful environment yet I can safely say the all institutions suffer the same sickness inside its system.

                This year is about to end and  the comeback of those two hearts managed to kept itself intact, I can say these precious months that we came by together again, it was a bit different. There is so much strength and maturity and understanding and tandem, something that makes a good and healthy relationship. 9 days to go before we go round about again, and I guess for a greener pasture and a healthy heart, this year unveiled to me its bounty for my maturity. This is what I call a blessing. The fire that burns me and moulds in me the man every boy wants to be.  “Through the fire and the flames we carry on!”

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